This is what I do when I feel completely and utterly hopeless: I open my blog and let all the things on my mind come tumbling out. I apologize for the disorganized thoughts, but I know you guys understand me. Nobody else reads this except for you dear people anyway.

I feel like I've lost all sense of priority. Today, I've reached an all time low. What's happening to me? I've been sucked into the process of activities and somehow I've lost myself. Right now, I feel so so lost. I set standards for myself and when I don't reach them I get frustrated. And now, I'm not only frustrated, I'm on the brink of crying because of my disappointment in myself (I'm at the office though, so I'm trying to hold back my tears). I don't know if you've ever had a goal, and you knew, just knew you could achieve it if you tried your very best. I did. Well, I do. But the thing is, looking back, I haven't been trying my very best and I let that golden opportunity of achievement slip right through my fingers. The goal that was once so close seems so far away now. Focusing on the silver lining though, I can see that glimmer of hope, that tiny crack of sunlight through the thunderous clouds. But it's so tiny. I'm broken pieces on the floor without any strength to reassemble myself.

Negativity just attracts more negativity. I'm trying hard not to be pessimistic.

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But it's so hard...  

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